…….not fair!!!!!!

Posted: September 14, 2009 in Health and wellness, Poems, Ramblings
Its just not fair!
here I am a grown man
crying my eyes out as I type
there’s water rolling down my cheeks
…….why?
Because it is just not fair!
Who doles it out this…. fairness thing,
where is it?
I can’t find it!!!
…….and as for YOU !
the ‘you make your own luck
and/or deal with it’ crowd,
well I HAVE, for 36 years
but I just can’t get a break.
Why?
Where is this stuff
so I can buy some maybe?
I just want to be with someone
and be happy,
but I am not allowed that, oh no!
So I fight through the nettles of seizure.
Mostly pushing it away,
refusing to let it get the upper hand.
Even when it entangles me,
I can hear myself saying, NO! NO!
out load and then the scar tissue
turns several pages and I am lost.
Someone who HAS to be so in control is lost!
What happened?
I was OK wasn’t I?
Maybe, I should go after the one
who was doling out fate
in the form of my disability,
and I would have a few words with him!!
Some people type or print Him.
But he doesn’t deserve such reverence.
I just got an  email from someone
and it just blew me away,
because it’s just NOT fair!
I have given, I have loved, I have sacrificed,
I have avoided the suffering of holding back,
of staying out of the world.
I have not hidden myself away,
I have always tried to help,
so why can’t I have
the one opportunity before I fall cold,
of some sunshine in here?
Why…………. why?

dwk09

Comments
  1. Sherry says:

    Hi Dave. I too hope you are ok. And I pray that the oppertunity you seek finds it\’s way to you.HugsSherry

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  2. penny says:

    Crikey, Dave, that sounds so sad. I hope things pick up for you soon. Thinking of you , Pen.

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  3. Summer Breeze says:

    I Hope your ok. E-mails can be upsetting, I\’ve had a few! but stay positive, PLEASE read my 3rd blog.xx

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  4. Poppy says:

    Sending you a ((hug)) xx

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  5. Debbie says:

    Oh dear that dosent sound good!!!!Whatever it is, try and stay positive, ( I know, easy for me to say…….)Hope things pick up for you soon… xAnd thank you for the lovely comment you left, :o)

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