……over the edge

good grief!, these sites are a lot of hard work!…. But I suppose if  they give pleasure to the creators, if they somehow allow them to feel connected to the wider world or even enjoy those little gold stars or head pats we give one another through comments, like small children returning from school with some magical school project to show parents or guardians, then why not.

I needed spaces more before, but (and at this moment in cyberspace this is only an apology to about a half a dozen people), I am fading now and seem to have less and less time for this web-site which according to my Nuero-Psychiatrist is a good thing! (If you are epileptic you apparently need to have consultations with specialising psychiatrists because of the compromised position one finds oneself in, and the heavy side-effects of the medication of course) Apparently swimming is far better for me.

Most of us need that sort of thing, the constant back patting, the reassurance of even the whispered positivity of friends, the highly rated professional probably needs it more than anyone else. Sportspersons are the most obvious, those without managers and trainers have the most difficult time, they need to constantly tell themselves that what they are doing is for good reason and a high, worthy objective. The artist, constantly needs reassurance that his movie, or his play, his photograph, his acting or his poetry are of a standard that gives some recognition to their very existence as reputation is everything. Then there are the successful in business, and the higher echelons of politics bound together since time began. All chattering positivities at the right moments and measuring their successes by bank balances, taxes paid or unpaid I suppose, or votes gained or lost wether in boardroom, market or electorate.

Just like spaces, did I get a visit to my little poll booth today? Did anyone vote? Did anyone spoil the ballot paper? Did anyone leave a little gold star, a pearl, a kiss. Even the reassurance that I have followed the right football team for yet another season matters, is a reassurance, a confidence booster. I am a Champion again!