……over the edge

4 years of being stuck in 1st gear grinding the cogs,

to just hold on,

let alone,

but must move on.

The slope is not steep,

but one lapse of concentration and that feeling of rolling back or is the world moving forward and leaving me behind?

what happened to that energy?

that made people laugh out loud?

that wouldn’t allow stillness, constant swerves and moves?

It has to be controlled, to maintain a grip,

I suppose,

cloistered.